magsasawa ka

magsasawa ka kasi gusto mo lang ng masaya,
aatras ka kasi ayaw mo ng subukan.
magsasawa ka kaysa malunkot at masaktan.
Gusto mo lang maging masaya.

I love you without knowing why

I love you without knowing why and how.
Yet I know I love you and why.
I don't want to be vulnerable yet,
I don't want to beg for your love yet,
I don't want it, coz I know I want it.
You'll regret the day that I become like that,
If you love me, tell me, show me,
Coz all I see now is a fog of your reality,
All i see is a disgust of my reality compared to your world of fantasy.

When the magic wears off

When the magic wears off.

All magic is a trick,
We either let them deceive us for the rest of our lives
or know their secrets and leave them behind.

What I fear the most is the magic of mystery,
where everyone tries to unravel the unknown,
then after that? the magic wears off.

people tend to look for another mystery, or worst,
staying to the 'myst' while finding another unknown.

No, I'm the kind of person who likes to stay where the fog is gone,
where the mystery is already unraveled and
where the place digs deep within.
Nothing new, but keeps on digging.

Now I hope the magic lasts forever.


(Worried that someday even a friend, you won't let me become) damn. I want to sleep today. :)

Fear

I always fear that a day would come that someone other than me would try to win her heart.

Surely he would be greater than me in pursuing. Why am I thinking about this now? hais, so much chills. I won't lose. But I hope it doesn't come. fvc*.

What should love be?

Love should just be:
"enough that you know she remembers you."
"enough that she treats you like a friend"

But what should you do if you love somebody?

Sleepless

Hais sleepless, di ako makatulog for no definite reason, I hate this. I Need to care less.

Feelings 101
1. They will never treat you right.
2. They will only care about what they feel.
3. You yourself won't notice that you only care about yourself.
4. They lie for many good and bad reasons.
5. You can never be too possessive.
6. You can never care too hard.
7. One mistake and your out of their game.
Last. Pride sometimes become the reason why people will want you, and will leave you.

Exemption and Solution: Do everything opposite but care less and think less about the probability that they will once again disappear, either care less and feel nothing if they will go away or have really high confidence that they will not leave you. So, this idea makes me sleep. good.

May Nakatingin

"May Nakatingin"

Nabuhay kang paglabas mo sa sina-pupunan ay madaming nakatingin,

Hindi mo man sila nakikita pero alam mong may nagmamasid,

Sa kilos at sa galaw, sa bawat hininga at bawat pikit ng mata.

Alam mong hindi totoo lahat ng espasyo sa iyong tabi,

Dahil lahat ng iyan ay may nag-aabang na mata,

Sa iyong pag galaw, sila ay nakatingin,

Onting mali, alam mong sila'y sisigaw.

Hindi mo man sila makita,

alam mong alam nila,

dahil sila ay nakatingin.

Lumabas ka man ng bahay,

Abot parin ang kanilang paningin,

Mismong paghinga mo'y kanilang kokontrolin,

Hindi biro ang kanilang mga matatalas na paningin,

Parang mga pangil na nag-aabang para ika'y sakmalin.

Sa

na

da

hil

han

gang

sana

nalang

ang mga

bagay-bagay.

Passion in Vain

"Passion is like an oil,
it stirs up the fire.
but like oil, it is black and in vain
without a fire to engulf to."

Some people turn their passion in to a wood. Helping others' fire to grow.

That's why I trained myself to tame the oil within me. Coz' no matter what I do, I know I will never be the fire that I wanted to be. There might be some wood that will try to help me, but it will never be enough for me to be the fire that I wanted to see.

"Always remember when everything seems wrong,
It might be that everything is right and you are wrong,
But then, it might be that everyone must really be wrong
and you are correct, but then you are still wrong, 
because the judge will always be them... 

if you think you need to make them believe that you are right."

Game on

Let go of the pain,

Never let go of love.

"Siguro kaya gusto natin ilabas lahat ng malulunkot na bagay dahil gusto natin ilet go lahat ng pain...

at madalas, hindi natin maikuwento sa iba ang kasiyahang nararamdaman natin kasi genuine ito at umaasa tayo na wala na itong katapusan."

Sabi nga ng prof ko sa thesis sa kaniyang retreat letter para sa amin, (ayon sa pagkakaintindi ko) Matatawag mo lang na LOVE mo ang isang bagay kapag naranasan mo nang gustuhing wag itong mahalin pero sa kabila nito, bumabalik at bumabalik ka parin dito. 

(Beware, random and useless post, so strangers, leave now, haha)

TRUE

Well hindi ito ang dahilan kung bakit nagsusulat ako ngayon. Actually may deadline ako ng 12am, at lagpas 12am na -_-. Well bago ang lahat, siguro kaya walang pumapasok sa isip ko kasi natalo ang school ko sa La Salle. 

Pero sa kabila nun, naging sports naman kami at nangakong babawi kami sa last game. HAHAHA.

pero siyempre, buti nalang at kasama ko siya sa panunuod ng game, kundi, siguro nainis na ko ng tuluyan sa pagkatalo pa namin.

Masaya ako. Yun lang. Hindi ito kayang sirain ng mga Deadlines ko sa academics. wahaha. so ito, gagawa na talaga ako. -_-. Lets go!

(Some random and useless post)